Honey Pot

To whom it may concern
 
I know we ran out of time
 
It's unfortunate that you couldn't share your life with mine
 
There was a time that we were all we had 
Hand-in-hand we traveled into darkness looking for good and indulging in the bad
 
the catalyst of my desire 
fueled me when I was at my most dire
 
Never giving up constantly persistent
 
Making sure I had enough to be subsistent 
 
 Maintaining my credence 
 Increasing my dependence
 
Accepting of your affliction 
Consumed by your addiction 
 
I wished and prayed that this day would never come
 
The anxiety and fear that our relationship may be done
 
I am scared of living without you by my side
 
Without your influence where else can I hide
 
The world after you've left is a dark and lonely place
 
Every mirror reminds me of your face
 
 I struggle every day to live in this newfound way 
 
It was so much easier when I had you at my side Night and day
 
However the cost of your company was egregious at best
 
For the sake of my sanctity I need to put you to rest
 
I let go of your hand and watch you fade away
 
The travesty is that I know somewhere hidden within me a piece of you will stay
 
Only to return when it's most inopportune
 
With vigor and malice you will attempt to consume
 
You will try to reclaim The relationship that we once had
 
For the last time I'm better without you dad
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