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*Dual curved top end then wrapped under * She comes to me most nights I was terrified at first but she gave me no reason to fight She taught me a language that only her and I know how to write She penned me an incantation For what , I was not sure but I accepted based off an inclination Hope rarely comes for the destitute And my life is a saga of ill repute *pinch three in the middle* She touched me no differently than I have been touched before Yet somehow she knew everything about me every transgression, every sin , every fragmentation She unlocked everything I hid, even what I didn’t know I buried She felt my brow Her touch felt dry and callused odd at first but to me it didn’t matter she was all I could see and she clearly came for me *wrap it around the top then back under* She forced eye contact Not from restraint rather threw unadulterated indulgence The serenity contained within her gaze made me feel what it’s is like to love myself which in turn was everything I was chasing All the suffering I had to endure She made it ok , I begged of her inject me with the cure Though the feeling is only momentary I always needed more *wrap around 6 more times* She is gone before dawn like a man possessed by lust days became unbearable and nights pass in flashes For her I couldn’t get enough I tore at wounds I cut into anything left Just to get her to let me feel her touch Like the Madonna she would heal me as if I were worth her embrace it didn’t matter to her that I was a fucked up disgrace *Then feed it back through me* Her icy hands burned as she reached into my chest , they slid through my gaping wounds from a life lived with judgment , shame and guilt she felt my agony she wrapped her fingers around it and flooded me with empathy, I held that feeling for moment, like a child clutching a blanket it reminded me of what makes me human what makes me have value Night after night she spends hours finding the parts of me lost within my Consciousness Stitch by stitch, her hands weaved peace and wellness through my pain Time and severity of injury were no issue She patiently reconnected more than just the damaged tissue She bonded the psychological with the physical *Slip me on and pull me over * My desire for her to complete the omen it’s all I fantasized about They always try to warn you But they haven’t felt her They haven’t needed more I pulled her on top of me She kissed deep and with intention Her tongue was a conduit of languages and hieroglyphics Yet No words just two bodies communicating by touch Inside one another She let me feel her warmth It hurt at first, burned, like to be touched by the sun I tried to adjust, I needed to make space But she persisted and barred down the rhythm sped and intensified pulsating heart rates, two spirits writhing in unison I struggled to catch my breath Until finally intense orgasmic release *feel me tighten as you pull away* The pain of yesterday, a life’s worth of burden fades into stillness *Sway sway * I don’t exist to die I am dying to exist *sway sway* *sway sway* 
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Today is the moment
When we share this place one last time The road here was beautiful with memories of love, peace and joy All the lessons you taught All the wisdom you bestowed upon us we can never thank you enough Your love was as bright and warm as the glowing sun Your embrace was reassuring and comforting You were soft and gentle when we needed protection You stood tall in the face of adversity You were honest when it was easier to not be You were always giving no matter the circumstance Any moment with you is a highlight on the road of life Though the moments we shared together are now cherished memories Your legacy of love and positivity lives on inside all of us lucky enough to share this road with you Thank you I love you Goodbye Dedicated to all my loved ones who are waiting on the other side Constant never ending fighting
This Demon burns and suggests Something worse than dying That I should pursue past regrets Give way to temptation and ravish my addiction Hedonistic in thought debauchery in actuality Appeal to my savior a hollow attempt at contrition Seduced by arcane whispers to follow Belial into amorality The metaphysical urges of pursuing my succubus Intense Internal stress the value of my transgression The quite suffering of my conscious Interpersonal sins have earned me an eternity of subliminal perdition Heat surges through my hands
Passion burning from within The tools of my creativity Spark to life, blazing satisfaction to the narcissist Every ember of skill ignites value to all they touch The internal flame that fuels creation burns without prejudice As fire is my gift to the world A torched canvas is the sacrifice. To whom it may concern
I know we ran out of time It's unfortunate that you couldn't share your life with mine There was a time that we were all we had Hand-in-hand we traveled into darkness looking for good and indulging in the bad the catalyst of my desire fueled me when I was at my most dire Never giving up constantly persistent Making sure I had enough to be subsistent Maintaining my credence Increasing my dependence Accepting of your affliction Consumed by your addiction I wished and prayed that this day would never come The anxiety and fear that our relationship may be done I am scared of living without you by my side Without your influence where else can I hide The world after you've left is a dark and lonely place Every mirror reminds me of your face I struggle every day to live in this newfound way It was so much easier when I had you at my side Night and day However the cost of your company was egregious at best For the sake of my sanctity I need to put you to rest I let go of your hand and watch you fade away The travesty is that I know somewhere hidden within me a piece of you will stay Only to return when it's most inopportune With vigor and malice you will attempt to consume You will try to reclaim The relationship that we once had For the last time I'm better without you dad I stand as a shell of what I was
The pageantry all but disappeared The sting of former glories A time long since gone away Despair of a fallen hero is the expression that I leave Judge thy appearance Cause that’s the version you’ll see Affix me on your my face To see what I was And what you’ll be Once I was the dominant The patriarchal leader of the hegemonic The celebrated misogynic The alpha demonic Judge thy appearance Cause that’s the version you’ll see Affix me on your my face To see what I was And what you’ll be Committed , Classically ritualistic The rings of symbology, I attempted to control and deny La Senora broke the cycle, tired of an ancient hypocrisy Ella me dejo, Alone I beg to die Judge thy appearance Cause that's the version you'll see Affix me on your face To see what I was And what you'll be Alone for all eternity I see with such clarity My actions were responsible for my fate I choose this path when I wore thy mask Judge thy appearance Cause that's the version you'll see Affix me on your face To see what I was And what you'll be Erased from the memory of Father Time
Singularly each part lives within my duality Two opposing halves to make me whole Her razor an instrument of love and care Her patience fills the void Her understanding gives me hope Her affection rehabilitates my soul She unlocks the happiness within She accepts what I was and who I will become She herd what I had to say She is the addiction in my vein Aahh!! I am the one who's damned Inconceivable I could undermine What is and should be mine Defeated by addiction Restrained by rehabilitation Someone give me my fucking medication Her specialty is desire Rescued me when I was in denial Lost and loathing Her touch was so comforting Her presence is intoxicating She makes me feel eternal She Ignites the ambers of the forgotten She has an infectious inner shine Aahh!! I am the one who's damned Inconceivable I could undermine What is and should be mine Defeated by addiction Restrained by rehabilitation Somebody give me my fucking medication AAAHHHH!!! Because of Her and She you and me can never be Separated lost in duality We live blind of actuality You and Me are Her and She The Fuckin Rehabilitation and Addiction inside of me AAAHHHHH!!!!! A friend of mine is a friend of yours is how we were introduced
Friendly and kind at first A little flirtatious, enough to keep it funny But not an invitation A Few drinks then a couple more We were all good to go Said my thank you's and goodbyes He offered me a ride we arrived at my house he caressed my hand and went for a kiss I pulled back Said no I don't like you like this His eyes began to narrow He hit me with a fist Wrapped the seatbelt around my neck I tried to scream I tried to fight back But I was being suffocated everything faded to black I awoke laying on the floor Battered and bruised and worst of all used I staggered in the house Daddy he raped me i cried He looked at me and was furious I told you not to go out looking like slut Wearing clothes that accentuate your butt You were asking for it You were drinking and flirting what was he supposed to do? You bring shame to the family My only daughter out of four And she is a fucking whore You're never to speak of this again because after all it's your sin months turn to years Daddy's shame and judgement persist My silent tears wash away the woman I was The thought never goes away Maybe I am the one to blame I am the villain I'm the one who fucked up It's my fault I was raped Solutions I can only think of one Knife in hand Fueled by a bottle of Jack Cut until my feelings fade to black |
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